The third of Candida Lawrence's memoirs, Fear Itself rises from her life-long awareness of human fragility. A survivor in the truest sense and a woman of greatest personal resilience, Lawrence traces her years struggling to have a child and her slow realization that she is a victim of governmental secrets and lies during the 1940's. Unwittingly exposed to low-level radiation, Lawrence learns to believe herself into wholeness and survive her disappointments until there is nothing left to fear--but fear itself.
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In light of the crisis at the Fukushima Daiichi Nuclear Power Station in Japan, the remarkable personal story that comprises Fear Itself becomes a cautionary tale. Unwittingly exposed to low-level radiation in the 1940s, Candida Lawrence has lived courageously with its effects throughout her life. Fear Itself traces her years struggling to have a child and her slow waking to the secrets that governments and institutions withheld from the women of her generation. The task for her--and for women who have shared her experience--has always been to believe herself into wholeness and to survive her losses and her illnesses until there is nothing left to fear. As always, Lawrence's writing is filled with smart, gentle anger, sweet sadness and the most private sense of what is vital and important. In Fear Itself, Lawrence's deeply felt remembrances grant us an honest account of what it is to live in an unstable world. It is a truly personal account that sheds wide light on the world's ongoing nuclear decisions. What personal life story could be more timely?